This afternoon I just got really hungry. I started to snack on a fruit and nut trail mix, knowing it had too many calories. Snacking has always been a problem; that was my worse way of gaining excess weight. It’s so easy to have a jar of peanuts or a few candy bars at your desk during the day.
It seems that those snacks would be used up with the energy it takes to do your work. But they go to the hips or stomach like anything else. Well, I was also very tired today from not having slept long enough last night. Only got about 6 hours of sleep and I was dragging. So I didn’t feel like making any food and was bored with eating plain, unadorned fruits and veggies.
Going healthy doesn’t mean starving yourself; it means paying attention to what you put in your mouth. So I decided to just eat. Somewhere in the food selection I made a really bad mistake because hours later I’m still having bad stomach aches.
I ate a Boca burger, a fake burger patty. I added mustard, pickle and ketchup then put it between two pieces of lettuce. Well, I know it wasn’t the lettuce, but I don’t know if it was the condiments or the Boca burger. Guess I should have just started wtih the burger, taken a check on the reaction, then tried one condiment at a time.
After a cleanse, its not easy to keep making the same food choice mistakes. I’m learnig a lot about my body and what makes it healthy. Until I learn some new recipes for raw and vegetarian foods, I need to be very careful about what I put in my mouth. I certainly pay the price when I don’t.
Yesterday, Tuesday, was Day 2 of my cleanse and coffee detox. I thought I was dying. The headache I had kept me from looking at my computer screen, so I couldn’t even blog about the experience. I actually didn’t realize what was going on at first.
I thought something was wrong with me.
I had chills, my nose was running, I was achy all over. I could think of many things this could be attributed too. Such as the long walks I’d taken with my son in San Francisco over the weekend while playing tourist. Maybe I’d caught a cold or something, but it wasn’t that type of sick. The chills were different. I was sweating and a bit dizzy.
I guess something WAS wrong with me. My body was throwing off toxins in my body from the overload of caffeine. I started reading online how caffeine is a drug. I knew this but the actuality of it didn’t hit until I had this experience. It reminded me of the scene in the movie “Ray” with Jaime Fox when Ray Charles goes through drug rehab. I felt like a junky getting off drugs.
It hit me that I was having withdrawal symptoms; I just never thought they would be so bad. By late afternoon, I was wiped out and had to take a nap. Mostly , I needed to close my eyes because of the headache. The aches in my body were really bad. I couldn’t stand it after a while and took an aspirin. That helped. After having a raw vegetable salad and some fruit I decided to just go to bed early. I couldn’t sleep becuase of the body pains. I felt like a wimp but I took an Aleve. It probably has caffeine but I don’t know; I just wanted to get rid of some of the pain and go to sleep.
I started my coffee detox when I started my cleanse on Sunday evening. After dinner on Sunday around 7:00 p.m., I didn’t eat again until Monday evening around 7:00 pm. During that time I only drank filtered water. I’ve done a fast for several days before but I admit, I always had a bit of coffee with it.
This time, a part of the cleanse is to clear out my system of toxins so that means getting out of the coffee habit. Whether I’ll drink any after this is questionable but I’ll deal with that later.
By Monday evening, I was feeling tired and dragged out, but I attributed it mostly to not eating all day. I was starting to get a headache and feeling disoriented. All I could think about starting around 5:00 p.m. was taking a shower and getting into the bed. But I was able to eat something at 7:00 so I was also looking forward to that.
I had half a watermelon and a half of a banana after the initial fasting session. It never tasted so good. When you’re really hungry, food taste better. When you get full, it starts to lose its taste. I was really hungry because the taste of the fruit never went away. In fact, I thought I’d eaten too much because I started to feel a headache. So I drank loads of water and tried to get to sleep.
That was Day 1 of getting off coffee. I hadn’t started to miss is yet since I was so focused on just not eating anything.
Sunday evening I started a cleanse. While I don’t have to starve myself this week, I’m only eating raw fruits and vegetables. Additionally, I only drink pure water with lemon at the most. That means no coffee.
For some that’s not a big deal. For me, it’s really serious. Coffee is precious to me. I’m the type that makes it first thing in the morning like it was a companion or something. My coffee intake was up to 8 cups a day. It’s not that difficult to reach that level without knowing. Everything related to food in America is super-sized, including the cups we use to drink coffee. So swigging two of the large ones already gives me four cups. Then by afternoon, I’m ready for more. Without realizing it, I consume more coffee in a day than some people do in a week.
Going cold turkey is the only way I know to stop this habit. If you ever wondered if this was a form of detox I can vouch that it is. I have been having the worse withdrawal symptoms ever. In fact, I had to do some research online to be sure I was experiencing something normal in a detox situation because I’ve never been through this before.
I thought it might be helpful for you to know what it’s like to withdraw from coffee addiction. The reason being that I hope you also take the step if you’re as addicted as I am. In order to really experience a new start with my health, I have to go all the way to getting better. That starts with letting go of what’s been holding me back and coffee consumption is a start. I’ll chronicle the next few days and leave a trail of information for you to access when you decide to make the coffee withdrawal.